BALTIMORE -- You think you were mad. CC Sabathia was furious. Just as you were throwing your remote, he was firing his glove and hat into the dugout.
He agrees with you. The type of loss that occurred Friday night can't happen. It shouldn't happen. He didn't say he needs to be a real ace again, but he might as well have.
He took responsibility for what was a bad loss.
"It can't happen," Sabathia said after the Orioles' come-from-behind 4-3 win over the Yankees.
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Sabathia threw five innings of no-hit ball before bad luck, a bad mistake and -- the part that made Sabathia "super frustrated" -- a couple of bad pitches. After Sabathia lost the no-hitter on a Nate McLouth leadoff single in the sixth, Alexi Casilla hit a grounder that was close enough to the mound that it was Sabathia's play.
Rookie David Adams, making his first major league start at first base, came in to try to the field the ball. This left a problem when Sabathia scooped it up -- there was no one at first.
"It is my fault," Adams said. "I messed up. I need to be on the bag."
Sabathia could have saved the day, but after an out, Manny Machado nailed a two-run double on a hanging change. That made it 3-2.
Sabathia still had an opportunity to leave the inning with the lead. After a flyout moved Machado to third, Sabathia threw a 93 mph fastball that was good enough for an out to Adam Jones. But Jones squibbed it about 45 feet between the line and the mound. Adams stayed put this time. Sabathia, doing a 180 and falling to the ground, threw off-line and late. It was tied at three.
In the seventh, after two outs, McLouth would untie the game with a high solo shot on a poor slider. By the end of the inning, Sabathia exploded on his way into the dugout. He fired his glove and hat into the dugout. He hit 94 on this hot summer night, but he may have thrown his equipment with more velocity.
"I try not to show my emotions too much," Sabathia said. "But it happens."
Sabathia dropped to 8-6 with a 4.15 ERA. After 17 starts in 2012, he was 10-3 with a 3.30 ERA.
"He is un-CC-like maybe numberswise, but as far as intensity and the way he goes about it, he is the same guy," Chris Stewart said.
Sabathia doesn't want any ribbons for trying. He knows what his mandate is as the ace. His record could surely be better if it didn't feel like three runs in the first three innings were some sort of gift. If he had the 2012 offense behind him, the Yankees may have put on a couple of tack runs and then the conversation would be different on Friday night.
But these are the 2013 Yankees, as you are well aware, so they stopped hitting and scoring from the fourth inning on.
Sabathia agrees with you as you watch on TV -- he is not completing his starts.
"I feel like I'm wasting starts," Sabathia said.
He chalked up another one on Friday.