Never blink

The Jayhawks' de facto mom, Miss Angel, never left Robinson's side after his mother died. Nancy Newberry for ESPN The Magazine

This story appears in the Nov. 14, 2011, issue of ESPN The Magazine.

HE STILL GROANS WHENEVER his phone rings. If he had his way,he'd never answer it again. You're better off texting him, or just
going to find him at his home away from home -- the gym. Sometimes he's at Allen Fieldhouse three times a day, for the sole purpose of
self-preservation. He's in there shooting, lifting and running with only two things on his mind: his little sister and a tree.

The sister, 8-year-old Jayla, is an aspiring pianist with a smile that could light up 15 city blocks. He just wishes he'd see it more. As for the tree, it's barely six weeks old and stands inconspicuously outside the fieldhouse, feeding off the autumn mist and growing day by day.

He stops and inspects it every time he's walking to the arena sometimes he'll stay for 10 minutes, lost in his thoughts, his hopes
and dreams. When the campus gardeners planted the tree in October, he wrote a letter and buried it with the roots. If what he wrote in that letter comes true, Jayla will be set for life. If it doesn't, it won't be because he didn't try.

"EARL! EARL! Come up in this kitchen right now and learn to cook, Earl!"

Lisa Robinson had a son to raise, and because life is unpredictable, she was always preparing him for emergencies. Maybe she'd have to work late babysitting mentally disabled children, or maybe her chronic high blood pressure would incapacitate her for a day. Someone would have to cook, someone would have to take care of his baby sister. That's why Lisa was always hollering for Earl.

His full name is Thomas Earl Robinson, and while everyone else in southeast Washington, D.C., called him Thomas or T-Rob, Lisa always
summoned him by his middle name. Earl was her "yeah, you heard me" name, the one that made Thomas come running. She was the only one
allowed to call him that, because to him, Earl sounded like an old man's name. And he never wanted to be older than his years.

Besides, being Thomas was getting him attention on the basketball court. As a young teenager, he was raw offensively, but coaches have a
soft spot for kids who can run all day and live to rebound. By 2008,Thomas' junior year at Riverdale Baptist High School in Upper
Marlboro, Md., the college scouts were lurking. Before his senior year -- and now with a build of a Greek god -- he transferred to
higher-profile Brewster Academy in Wolfeboro, N.H., and the buzz was that he was among the top 30 or 40 players in the nation.

Kansas coach Bill Self was already frothing. He had first seen Thomas in the summer of 2008 at the Reebok All-American Camp in Philadelphia, and as much as Self loves McDonald's All-Americans, he adores raw prospects with high motors. "The thing I remembered is how
hard he tried," Self says. "I said, 'Am I missing something in this kid? He looks better than everybody else here.'"

Kansas started calling -- ahead of Memphis, Pitt and Kentucky -- but Lisa wanted nothing to do with the Jayhawks' program. Kansas was
too far away. She was afraid of flying and didn't have enough money for an airline ticket anyway. It was hard enough that her son was
spending his senior year in New Hampshire, so she was not having Kansas; she flat-out told Thomas she was crossing the school off his list.

Lisa, a single mother, was a disciplinarian unafraid to grab her son by the ear. Her mantra: Never blink. But Thomas also considered her his best friend; they'd talk about everything -- girls, movies, even the father who had no part in his life. So when it came to his college choice, he pleaded his case and brought other family members into the discussion. The extended group included his
grandmother, Shirley Gladys White, who often babysat him; his grandfather, Willatant Austin Sr., who loved hoops; and even his half
brother, Jamah, who was eight years older and lived on the other side of town.

Thomas told all of them that he thought Kansas basketball had a
family feel. And he told Lisa about Marcus and Markieff Morris, twins
who were skilled big men and could mentor him. Better yet, their
mother, Angel, lived in Lawrence and served as a second mom to just
about every player. They all called her Miss Angel.

Lisa agreed to a home visit in September 2008, though Self knew she
remained skeptical. The minute the coach walked in, she said, "So
you're the man who's been giving me headaches." But once they hugged
and she sensed the coach's sincerity, all was forgiven. Self was
particularly taken with Jayla, who grinned wide, asked her mom for a
Jayhawk doll and wanted to see the apps on the coach's iPhone. "Not a
cuter girl out there than Jayla," says Self, who loved
her energy. Lisa fell for Self as well, and Thomas committed to Kansas
soon after.

Still, the day in 2009 when Thomas left DC for Lawrence was a
melancholy one for Lisa. After her son made it to campus, she called
Angel Morris to introduce herself and talk mother to mother. "Please
make sure my baby is doing okay," Lisa pleaded. "Can you check that
he's not eating pizza every night and that he's doing his work? Can
you please take care of my baby Earl?"

A FULL SEASON LATER, Lisa still hadn't made it to the KU
campus. So when the Jayhawks were scheduled to play Memphis at Madison
Square Garden on Dec. 7, 2010, Lisa and Jayla drove the five hours
from DC. Before the game, Thomas proudly introduced them to his
teammates and their moms, and everyone noticed how he doted on his
baby sister. "He loves that little girl," says Jayhawks guard Elijah
Johnson, Thomas' roommate. "She's his world." Thomas had always
considered her his sidekick. Jayla was born in 2003, just as Jamah was
moving out; when Lisa was working, Jayla would have to tag along to
Thomas' basketball practices.

Twelve years older than Jayla, Thomas also saw himself as her
protector. Lisa gave him leeway to discipline Jayla, so when the girl
showed up in New York wearing multiple earrings, Thomas wagged his
finger. "Why does Jayla have all those earrings?" he asked Lisa.
"They're too grown up for her. You need to take the earrings off."

It was as if he were Jayla's dad. Her real father, James Paris (who
is not Thomas' dad), had recently finished serving a prison term for
distribution of a controlled substance. Lisa and Jayla had visited him
in jail, but according to family members, Paris had never played a
consistent role in the girl's life. Thomas had always been the male
that Jayla depended on, a responsibility he relished. So when Thomas
said so, those earrings came off.

At the Garden, Lisa also
visited with Angel and confided that she'd recently found out her
parents had little time to live. Both were being treated for serious
illnesses in a DC hospital. Lisa, who was stressed and experiencing
intense headaches, asked Angel not to tell Thomas. She wanted nothing
to disturb his basketball.

At that night's game, Thomas, a bruising forward and Self's kinetic
sixth man, was sensational. He had 10 points and 10 rebounds in 15
minutes, and with Kansas comfortably ahead, he sat at the end of the
bench so he could quickly hug Lisa and kiss Jayla, who were seated
nearby. "Having a good game and seeing my mom happy was priceless," he
says. After the 81-68 Kansas win, he was first out of the locker room
so the family would have more time to visit before the team plane left
for Lawrence. Angel took a photo of Lisa, Jayla and Thomas embracing.
She promised to send copies.

Seeing his mom and sister made Thomas miss them even
more. He began spending additional time with Miss Angel and the twins.
Marcus and Markieff had heard Lisa call Thomas "Earl" back in New
York, and when they and some other teammates jokingly said "Pass me
the ball, Earl" at practice, Thomas just stared back at them. "He had
the best physique on the team," says Barry Hinson, the Jayhawks'
director of men's basketball operations. No one dared call him Earl
again. The name belonged to Lisa.

By late December, Thomas had settled back into his Lawrence
routine. But before practice one day, he noticed Lisa had been calling
his cellphone. He dialed her back and received the bad news: his
grandmother had died. As Thomas wept on the phone, Lisa, who
faithfully read the Bible, assured him that everything happens for a
reason. When Self saw his player sobbing in the gym, the coach urged
him to take the day off. But Thomas insisted on practicing. Never

When he returned to DC for the funeral, Thomas was a rock for Lisa
and Jayla -- and hid his own emotions. Three weeks later, in the
middle of January, the phone rang again; this time his grandfather had
died. "I'm thinking, This is bad," Thomas says. "This shouldn't be
happening. I'm not even over my grandmother yet. Far from it. And now
I get the call that my grandfather passed."

Lisa told him not to fly in for the funeral. He had a season to
play, and she wanted to protect him. But she also didn't want Thomas
to see what was happening to her. After her mother died, Lisa's
headaches and blood pressure worsened, and when she arrived at the
morgue with a friend, she needed help getting out of the car. She was
in physical pain at her mother's funeral, some of which Thomas
noticed, but Lisa never revealed to him that the doctors subsequently
found a clogged artery in her heart.

The only person Lisa told in Kansas was Angel, and after Thomas'
grandfather died, Angel began calling Lisa regularly. On Jan. 20,
Angel phoned and could hear Lisa fussing at Jayla in
the background. A few weeks earlier, while Jayla stayed with
relatives, Lisa had undergone an angioplasty. She was feeling a little
better but was still suffering with intense headaches. Angel sensed
that Lisa was overwrought and urged her to go to the ER, but Lisa said
she had a new medication and wanted to try it out first.

The next night, Friday, Jan. 21, the Jayhawks players watched film in
preparation for a pivotal Big 12 home game against Texas. Afterward,
around 11 p.m., the Morris twins recall they were kicking back in
Thomas' room when his cellphone rang. "It's from home, man," he said.
"I hope it's not any more bad news."

I'm thinking, This is bad. This shouldn't be happening. I'm not even over my grandmother yet. Far from it. And now I get the call that my grandfather passed.

-- KU power forward Thomas Robinson

"Pick it up," Markieff said.

"Forget it. I'm not answering."

Thomas let the call go to voice mail, then checked the message. It
was from Jayla; she was crying and begged Thomas to call her back.

He dialed Lisa's cellphone, but she didn't pick up. "Oh man, I
don't know what's going on," Marcus said. Thomas' eyes were watering,
and the twins were starting to tear up. He dialed his mom's home
phone, and Jayla answered. She told him that Lisa had had a heart
attack. Their mother was dead.

Thomas dropped his phone, sobbing. In less than a month, he had
lost both maternal grandparents and his mother. The twins called
Angel, who, when hearing the news, yelled, "Oh my god." She
immediately left for Thomas' apartment and phoned Self on the way. The
coach started weeping. "He was crying, I was crying," Angel says. "I
said, 'Coach, we gotta get ourselves together. Because we both got to
walk through that door and be there with that kid.'"

They found Thomas slumped on his bed, surrounded by teammates. When
Self entered the bedroom, the players cleared, and the coach asked
Thomas: "What can I do to help? Is there anybody you
need to talk to tonight?" Thomas had been sobbing uncontrollably. But
he stopped, dry-heaved and looked up at Self. "Coach, you don't
understand. I don't have anybody. All I have is my sister. All I have
is Jayla."

THE NEXT 12 HOURS were a blur. Thomas kept howling that
Jayla needed to fly to Lawrence and pleaded to Angel: "Just don't
leave me. Can you stick with me through the entire thing?" Self called
the team doctor, who said to make sure Thomas wasn't left alone. Angel
brought him to guard Josh Selby's mother's house, which was quieter;
he didn't fall asleep until about 4 a.m. The other players were up
most of the night as well, with the Texas game only hours away.

The team met that morning for its pregame shootaround, and out of
the blue, Thomas arrived in uniform. Self hadn't expected him to play,
but Thomas remembered how Lisa had always prepared him for
emergencies, how she ordered him to never blink. He found himself
being pulled to Allen Fieldhouse, and once he arrived, he asked Self
if he could address the group.

"Nobody treat me different," he told the players and staff. "I
don't want anybody to baby me. Babying me is not going to help me get
through. I don't need the coaches not to yell at me. I'm a grown

When he finished, he was the only one not in tears. Self asked
whether Thomas wanted the PA announcer to ask for a moment of silence,
but Thomas said he couldn't endure it. Self reminded him that Lisa had
never been to a home game; this would be the way to finally get her
there. Thomas agreed, and the second he checked into the game, Allen
Fieldhouse erupted. "It wasn't loud in a fan way," Hinson says. "It
was, if there is such a thing, loud in a loving way. I looked around,
and I mean grown men, ladies, kids, students, little ones -- just

The team played the first six and a half minutes on
adrenaline, leading 18-3, but finished the game on fumes. The
Jayhawks' shots kept rimming out. In the stands, Angel kept repeating
three words: "Release the rims." Hearing her, guard Tyshawn Taylor's
mom, Jeanell, asked, "Who are you talking to?"

Angel replied: "Lisa. She's here."

But two hours later, the Jayhawks' 69-game home winning streak was
over. Hinson accompanied Thomas to DC, with Angel following the next
day for the funeral. Angel shielded Jayla as best she could, while
Thomas and Jamah picked out a casket and an outfit in which Lisa would
be buried. Even more difficult for Thomas was entering her apartment.
He took her favorite sweater, some photos and her Bible as mementos,
but he quickly had to get out of there. All Angel kept saying was,
"Baby, it's going to be okay."

Out of necessity for Jayla, Thomas tried to remain a rock. The
funeral -- paid for by KU, with the blessing of the NCAA -- was held
during a snowstorm, and the electricity was out for much of the gray
afternoon. But for Thomas, the day brightened a bit when the entire
Kansas team walked, single file, into the church. Afterward, the KU
coaches watched Jayla cling to Thomas on the way to the hearse, and
one by one they began thinking the same thing: We'll adopt her.

IT WASN'T JUST FOR SHOW. Bill and Cindy Self, who had raised
a son and daughter, were serious about gaining custody of Jayla.
Assistant coaches Danny Manning, Joe Dooley and Kurtis Townsend, as
well as Hinson and Angel, made similar inquiries. But that wasn't the
half of it. Kansas fans around the state were e-mailing and texting,
offering to be Jayla's guardians. They were also donating cash to a
newly formed scholarship fund for her.

Still in a fog, Thomas was grateful. But he was the one who wanted
custody, even though he was living in the Jayhawker Towers apartments
and had a full load of classes. It didn't seem feasible that a
19-year-old basketball player could raise a second-grader, which is
why Self and his staff were willing to step in. But up until Lisa's
funeral, Thomas was still thinking of ways to fly Jayla to Lawrence,
still looking into area grammar schools. "He thinks every day of his
life, Jayla, Jayla, Jayla," Angel says.

What Thomas didn't expect was the fast bond Jayla was forging with
her dad, James Paris, back in DC. Perhaps Jayla was subconsciously
gravitating to the only parent she had left, but Thomas noticed Jayla
latching on to James and his three sisters. James implored Thomas to
let Jayla stay with him. Rather than uproot a brokenhearted little
girl, Thomas gave his approval.

"I have a lot of mixed feelings about James," says Thomas. "But he
loves his daughter and she loves him, so that's something that I
thought about, as far as me wanting to take my little sister. She'd
lost a lot, and all she knows is me and him. So I couldn't be selfish.
That's why she's home.

"It kills me. I pray the days go by fast sometimes, just so I can
see her. I wished that she could be with me here right by my side. But
it wasn't the best timing for it, you know?"

Thomas' uncle, Willatant Austin Jr., who had filed for custody of
Jayla, took Paris to court in the spring, claiming he was unfit to be
a parent. (Lawyers have advised both Paris and Austin not to comment.)
For his part, Thomas just wanted the legal haggling to stop. He was
drawing up his own long-term plan for Jayla, and he began implementing
it on Jan. 29 against Kansas State, his first game after Lisa's
funeral. Coming off the bench to another tearful ovation -- "I
couldn't even look up," Hinson says, "because I'm bawling like a baby
with about 16,000 other people" -- Thomas was a beast. He scored 17
points, shooting 7-for-11, and in the stands Angel thanked Lisa for
releasing the rims. Thomas, then a sophomore, was the best player on
the court, including the twins, and there was one overriding reason:
"My whole purpose of playing basketball was different," Thomas says.
"I don't care about the points anymore. I don't care about the stats.
I don't care about being the man. This was just a stepping-stone for
me to get where I have to go.

"I want Jayla with me. I want full responsibility for everything.
And I was in a position that if I took care of business with
basketball, everything I wanted for her could become possible."

His teammates could sense what was happening. At first, they had
wrestled with the deaths, wondering why a good kid would have to bury
three relatives in a month. But they would hear Thomas, quoting Lisa,
say that everything happens for a reason. They soon realized what that
was: The deaths motivated Thomas to become a star. He had to take care
of Jayla.

The plan was delayed, if not derailed, last February when Thomas
needed surgery to repair a meniscus tear in his right knee. After
coming back, he didn't even score in KU's Elite Eight loss to Virginia
Commonwealth. But that just made him more determined.

Over the summer, Thomas was a workaholic. He wouldn't take a day
off and was the most electric player at the Amar'e Stoudemire Skills
Academy, outplaying even Ohio State's Jared Sullinger. "He has the
speed of Kobe and a body like LeBron's," Markieff says. "Sky's the

When Thomas wasn't on the court, he was back in DC with Jayla or on
the phone with her. She'd begun asking when she could live with him.
He'd tell her: "Soon, baby. Soon." What he didn't tell her is that the
minute he gets to the NBA, he is going to request full custody and
move her in with him.

He has the speed of Kobe and a body like LeBron's. Sky's the limit."

-- Phoenix Suns power forward Markieff Morris

"I would never say he needs to leave for the NBA," Self says, "but
I hope Thomas is able to leave. I hope this is his last year at the
University of Kansas. Selfishly I want him to stay. We would win more
games. But it needs to be his last year."

Now a 6'9", 237-pound junior, Thomas is no longer a sixth man. In a
preseason poll, he was voted first-team All-America by CBSSports.com.
Some NBA scouts are even predicting he could be the No. 1 overall pick
in the next draft. In the meantime, he lives part-time with Angel, who
is fulfilling her promise to Lisa and keeping an apartment in
Lawrence, even though her twins were both NBA lottery picks in June.
Angel also flies regularly to DC to check on Jayla, who, because of
her scholarship fund, is attending private school and learning piano.
And on both Thomas' and Jayla's bedroom wall is the same photograph --
the picture Angel took at Madison Square Garden of Lisa and the two
kids, hugging.

"I'm still scared for my little sister," Thomas says. "I cry and I
complain about how it's not fair for me, but she's going through way
more. She's 8 years old. She ain't got the memories that I got with my
mom. I just feel like I can't stop. I got to do something to where I
make her so happy that she'll never have to go through any pain in her
life ever. No more bad phone calls. None of us can have any more bad
phone calls."

Basketball and Jayla: That's about all Thomas thinks about. When
Self recently suggested planting a tree in memory of Lisa outside
Allen Fieldhouse, a place she never lived to see, Thomas thought it
was the quintessential idea.
He and Self watched the gardeners dig the hole, and Thomas placed his
letter in with the roots. It reads:

I guarantee you have no worries about Jayla.
I will make sure everything is okay. I won't blink.
My promise.


Tom Friend is a contributor to ESPN The Magazine.

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