Moos wants to hear from Collins

Jason Collins' former fiancee says she is still hurt that he wasn't more forthcoming with her about his sexuality and that he didn't tell her he was going to come out publicly in a story for Sports Illustrated.

Carolyn Moos indicates in the August issue of Cosmopolitan, due out on newsstands Tuesday, that Collins told her he was gay the day the SI article was supposed to hit newsstands, but he didn't tell her about the story.

Moos says she still supports Collins but has yet to come to terms with the disintegration of their relationship.

"A month before I was set to marry the man I loved, he called off the wedding. I had no idea why. He and I had been together for eight years. We had planned to have children, build a family. Nearly four years later, I got my answer."

In April, Collins became the first active player in one of the four major U.S. professional sports leagues to come out as gay. He is a veteran of 12 NBA seasons, appearing in 38 games for the Washington Wizards last season, and is unsigned as a free agent.

Writing for Cosmopolitan, Moos says she found out about the Sports Illustrated article from a friend.

"I empathize with Jason and support him. But at the same time, I remain deeply hurt by him. I wish he could have been honest with me years ago," Moos writes. "I feel like there are two Jasons now -- the man I fell in love with and the man I'm trying so hard to understand. He's being hailed as a pioneer, but I believe true heroism is a result of being honest with yourself and with those you love."

Collins has not made time to talk further with Moos since his coming out, she said.

"I am sad that the media seems to be a higher priority," Moos writes. "I hope this changes in the coming weeks, as I value open dialogue more than anything."

Since coming out, Collins has taken a call from President Barack Obama, marched in Boston's gay pride parade with Massachusetts Congressman Joe Kennedy III, his onetime roommate at Stanford University, and headlined the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender gala in Washington.